Through knowledge and light, truth is born. The savior is the light that illuminates knowledge so that we may see eternal truth. Christ's gospel is the living waters and christ is the light. Through hydration and sunlight a tree may grow and bring forth good fruit. So it is with us. In order to grow we need the living waters- the gospel, which brings us nourishment in the form of knowledge, then the Savior deepens this knowledge by illuminating it and it becomes a part of us.
"The truth will set you free"
In all of my searching for healing I found one consistent thing...the truth, eternal truth is the only thing that brings true and lasting healing. I could search online or ask friends to help me understand the things I was going through, but never did any worldly or friendly advice bring me deep healing unless it was anchored in truth.
So as I "take-root" I want to make sure I'm in rich soil (surrounded by good people who nourish me and encourage me to grow), full of living water (gospel/God's word) that quenches and satisfies, and that I am always reaching for the suns light (Christ's Light) and then and only then can I bring forth the good fruit. (the fruits that I desire and need)
With this fruit (knowledge of truth I share) I can nourish my children, my husband, my extended family, my friends and my community. Fruit not shared only rots. So I must share my knowledge of truth (my testimony) with others.
I will be going on a journey this year to learn about divine beauty, intimacy as God intended it and how to heal from sexual abuse (or intense body shame) through expressive movement. Please follow my blog and join me on this journey of fitness, healing through movement and soul searching and soul healing. Thanks for all of your support and remember to....
Just Keep Moving!
kids 2014
Tuesday, April 12, 2016
Monday, February 8, 2016
Life's stormy seas
Each morning when I wake up I spend a few minutes meditating. I have found that it helps bring clarity, vision, and purpose into my day. The days that I neglect to meditate always turn out very different, in a negative way. So I have found myself looking forward to my me time. :) This morning as I was meditating I learned something pretty cool. Here is my visual to explain the lesson.
I was walking on the beach wearing a long white flowing dress. It was a peaceful day with a light breeze. I was twirling and just enjoying the beauty around me when suddenly an enormous wave comes up and it's shaped like a face with it's mouth gaping open. I was overcome with fear and immediately started to run but the wave engulfed me and no matter how hard I tried I could not free myself of it's grasp. It was too strong, too heavy, the water too deep. Eventually my muscles gave out and I couldn't breathe. I sunk to the bottom. As my eyes were starting to close and the water settled I could see the Savior standing above me on top of the water. His right hand reaching into the water to pull me up but he was too far, too out of reach, I didn't have the strength or even the cognition to reach for him. My hand that was outreached fell to the sandy ground and I passed out. Right before I passed out I heard the words "Right now, your desire alone is enough. Do you want my help?" I nodded my head and my eyes closed. Then I saw in my minds eye, the Savior part the waters so that my breathless body was on dry ground. He picked me up and took me to the shore and lay me down on the beach. I woke up coughing and gagging and saw him sitting next to me a short distance away, watching the sea. This bothered me that when I woke up he wasn't standing or sitting over me watching to make sure I was okay, to make sure I could breathe again. I guessed he knew I was okay but I was still upset that His face wasn't what I woke up to, instead I had to look for him, only for a brief moment, since he was so close, but I was still bothered that He wasn't watching over me. He was a picture of perfect calm and I noticed; so was the sea.
That is where the scene ended. It left me wondering, why was he not standing over me when I awoke? Why was he looking away from me? So I asked Jesus. Why are you turned away from me? Why were you not watching over me? I heard him say "I was watching over you. I calmed the sea and I made sure nothing engulfed you while you were unconscious and coming to your senses."
I thought..."This is beautiful Lord, how can or does this apply to my everyday life?"
He answered "I got you not matter where you are at. No matter your capability, no matter how weary. Even if all you can do is have a desire, I can work with that. It's all in My hands. I have the power to help you in any way that I choose. No trial is too big, heavy strong, deep, or dark. I have conquered them all and the way out is easy and clear to me."
May you look to Him in your deepest, darkest moments and know that He is never too far or out of reach and He will come to your aid.
I was walking on the beach wearing a long white flowing dress. It was a peaceful day with a light breeze. I was twirling and just enjoying the beauty around me when suddenly an enormous wave comes up and it's shaped like a face with it's mouth gaping open. I was overcome with fear and immediately started to run but the wave engulfed me and no matter how hard I tried I could not free myself of it's grasp. It was too strong, too heavy, the water too deep. Eventually my muscles gave out and I couldn't breathe. I sunk to the bottom. As my eyes were starting to close and the water settled I could see the Savior standing above me on top of the water. His right hand reaching into the water to pull me up but he was too far, too out of reach, I didn't have the strength or even the cognition to reach for him. My hand that was outreached fell to the sandy ground and I passed out. Right before I passed out I heard the words "Right now, your desire alone is enough. Do you want my help?" I nodded my head and my eyes closed. Then I saw in my minds eye, the Savior part the waters so that my breathless body was on dry ground. He picked me up and took me to the shore and lay me down on the beach. I woke up coughing and gagging and saw him sitting next to me a short distance away, watching the sea. This bothered me that when I woke up he wasn't standing or sitting over me watching to make sure I was okay, to make sure I could breathe again. I guessed he knew I was okay but I was still upset that His face wasn't what I woke up to, instead I had to look for him, only for a brief moment, since he was so close, but I was still bothered that He wasn't watching over me. He was a picture of perfect calm and I noticed; so was the sea.
That is where the scene ended. It left me wondering, why was he not standing over me when I awoke? Why was he looking away from me? So I asked Jesus. Why are you turned away from me? Why were you not watching over me? I heard him say "I was watching over you. I calmed the sea and I made sure nothing engulfed you while you were unconscious and coming to your senses."
I thought..."This is beautiful Lord, how can or does this apply to my everyday life?"
He answered "I got you not matter where you are at. No matter your capability, no matter how weary. Even if all you can do is have a desire, I can work with that. It's all in My hands. I have the power to help you in any way that I choose. No trial is too big, heavy strong, deep, or dark. I have conquered them all and the way out is easy and clear to me."
May you look to Him in your deepest, darkest moments and know that He is never too far or out of reach and He will come to your aid.
Wednesday, January 20, 2016
Baptism and Trust
In my church children are baptized at 8 years of age. They are immeresed in the water and brought back up again. In preparation of baptism many children worry about that moment that they are completely under the water. They each have their own reasons they worry. For some it is their face being in the water, worrying about water getting in their eyes or nose, worrying about holding their breath or worrying that the person holding them under the water will not be able to lift them back up. Perhaps they are even worried about their own strength in being able to help the other person lift them up.
What they do not realize, often until after they have been baptized, is that they are only under for a moment and they have strong, capable, righteous hands guiding them. I think it works the same for many of us during our trails. We are afraid of being left under the water, of not being able to breathe, of not seeing clearly, of drowning, or suffocating. We worry about how long it will last and if we will be able to withstand the time under (hold our breath). We get angry at God for not pulling us out sooner or even think he is the one holding us under but in retrospect we find that he is not the one holding us under, he is the one holding us up.
If you trust God and allow yourself to be immersed in whatever he is teaching you then you will find that just as with bapstim when you come out of the water (trial) you will be a new cleansed person. You just have to hold onto him and let him pull you up, trust in his experience, knowledge strength, and in his timing.
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| My son with my Dad before his baptism |
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